Quando Tu
Quando tu mira a mi
The shine in your eyes shines long
Quando tu esta en mis armamentos
I feel your heart beat strong
QuT sus ojos hacen a mf
QuT sus golpes de coraz=n hacen
All that love showing you care
Makes me hold tight and just stare
Quando tu chuchichTe en la oreja
I breath in you words of love
Quando tu bTseme suavemente
It raises my soul high above
QuT sus chuchicheos hacen
QuT sus besos hacen
All the feelings of love you give
I listen strong and kiss as I live
El coraz=n me muestra
Su amor me muestra
Teaches my heart and let love know
The person I feel I cannot let go

Runaway
Swollen legs, heavy feet
But heart and mind begin to meet
Gathers the conclusion
Your emotions are an illusion
Its the sun at night
It`ll never feel right
Just go, and leave fallen dust
To runaway I must
Handly slowly starts to wave
Been in deep thoughts for days
The time for action has risen
Too much of me I have given
No more can I take
Your emotions were too fake
Rise up and brake free
Runaway so I can breath
To catch myself as I turn
Again I know loved won`t be returned
Keep moving I quicken my pace
Runaway I go to a new place

Sad Showing A Smile
I'm sad showing a smile
It's been like that for quite awhile
I'm mad but you see a grin
What I feel I keep hidden
I cry but you here laughter
It 's like that before and after
I am cold inside but my skin is warm
I'm not alright, I feel so torn
I'm depressed but you see rejoicing
The smiles on my face I am forcing
I'm alone but in a crowd
My screams I don't say aloud
I'm weak but you see me as strong
I can't believe you can see what's wrong
I'm scared but you see me as brave
These feelings I have, might send me to the grave
I'm full of sorrow showing elation
You not realizing it, brings me aggravation
I'm aching but you don't see me braking
These feelings of mine, you might be making

Smile On My Face
Eyes bright and shimmering
Yet deep in my mind
The light of hapines is dimmering
Smile on my face
Teeth showing and all
But my head is aching
And I feel I'm about to fall
Smile on my face
Stretching from ear to ear
But the toughts in my head
Are of if you care
Smile on my face
That will make the room bright
But the feelings you send
Are startig not to feel right
Smile on my face
That you make when I see you
But you are making me quite sad
And I dont undersatnd why you do

Soon
I stood in shock as I just realize.
That in the near future I will meet my demise.
Soon my fate will end my memories will fade.
I wish that someone would come to my aide.
I will no longer be amongst the living.
I need so much help but no one is giving.
Soon I will be beneath the dirt.
I guess it is a release from all the hurt.
My life will soon cease to exist.
When the last drop flows out my wrist.
Weakness overcomes me and I hit the floor.
Soon I am going to be no more.
No one will see me or feel me.
No one did before that's the reality.
I was invisible, I wasn't there.
No one will miss me on one will care.
Soon I am going to be nothing just like before.
Alive I will not be anymore.
My chest rises one last time. My eyes close.
Soon I will be gone for the blood in my wrists no longer flows.

State Of Ambivalence
Sadness returns once again
Truth knows it will not end
Sorrow creeps around some more
Scars show something happened before
Tears trail through cheeks worn out
Mind is aware of faults about
Knowledge of wrong doing is buried
Heart pounding and blood racing is hurried
Trying to take shelter and hide
For all dat has made my mind cry
Still love takes over though
To find a new I have fought
Weakened with wanting what's not there
Confused for i still want you here
Your actions blacken self thought
But love for you I have brought
My hand stays open waiting for you
But turn away is what you do
Hurting helps me become clear
It is safer for my heart if you're not here

Take It Out
Take it out the dark
So I can see
Bring it to the light
So it can be closer to me
Take it out its hiding place
So it can be touched
Bring it my way
Cause I want it so much
Take it out the deep hole
So I can hold on
Bring it up to me
So we can form a bond
Take it out the shadows
So I can know it's there
Let me feel it
So I know it's here
Take it out of where ever it hides
So we can be together
Bring it out and let it show
So I can keep your love forever

That Feeling
That feeling that I get
When you come around
Makes my heart just quickly
Start to pound and pound
That feeling that comes my way
When you are in sight
And it stays there
All day and night
That feeling that I have
When I see your eyes
Makes me stand still
And love for you I realize
That feeling that I feel
When you are next to me
Makes everything else fade
And you are all I see
That feeling that comes
From you
Makes my life
Easier to go through

Things That I Feel
The rain falling down my face,
The thunder in my chest,
Are some things I feel
When I can not rest.

Rivers flowing down my cheeks,
The lightning striking in my skin,
Are just some of the things
That I feel within.

The snow that smothers all over,
The earth quakes that rattle me,
Are some things I feel
Inside my body.

The hurricanes that blow away,
The whirlpools that come back to me,
Are just some of the things
That I feel constantly.

This Is The Time
When the sky is dark
And the moon is high
This is the time
That I begin to cry
When the stars are up
And there is no one around
This is the time
My tears hit the ground
When all is quite
And it is time to sleep
This is the time
I begin to weep
When every is gone
And I am all alone
This is the time
I grieve and moan
When no one can here
And my saddness is unknown
This is the time
That I cry on my own

This Is What They Told Me
"You are mentally unstable.
You are not thinking right."
This is what they told me
Because I decided to take my life last night.
"We have to put you in this white room.
We have to tie you to the bed."
This is what they told me
Because I made my wrist drip red.
"You have to stay for observations.
You have to stay for a couple of weeks."
This is what they told me
Because I am emotionally weak.
"You have to go to therapy.
You have to talk to a professional."
This is what they told me
Because I was feeling very low.
"I can't believe it. You just left yesterday.
I thought you were going to be just fine."
This is what they told me
Because I did it again but right this time.

Tinted Words
Tinted words that I had to say
That are said everyday
That come out when they shouldn't
To speak the truth I couldn't
Tinted words that hide
The things I feel inside
Tinted words that are less
Then what really needs to be expressed
Tinted words that fade the expressions
But keep me away form deep depression
Words expressed to hide out
The possible pain that might come out
Tinted words that take the place
Of what's hidden on my face
That cover up the truth in my eyes
Tinted words that are just lies
Tinted words that are my mask
For telling the truth is a greater task
Tinted words that are my life
For it takes the place of possible strife

To Hold
Finally found a new love to hold
Tightly together true hearts unfold
Warm words of love welcomely told
Standing strong and still, our love shines bold
Time turns to pass and still we hold
In our eyes shines so strong the code
In love are we. Its time to explode
Let love scream loud, let it be told
For a new passion I now have to hold
Heavy hope holds our hearts' heavy load
Such strong a love heart has been sold
Heat from hearts had our backs on cold
Found in soul, shimmers so bright and bold
Firmly squeezing the one I love to hold
Love seen in future, faith lets it be told
Deep in love its waters build up load
Love freely felt forever would always unfold
As time passes on and life grows old
Such strength in sight it can't be slowed
For I won't let go of the one I hold

Today
I am going to find it out today
Going to see if it is true
I need to know today
Even though I don't want to
I made my appointment for today
It is set for 2 p.m.
As soon as I leave my house today
I feel my emotions bend
It's going to be revealed today
It's going to be known
I'm feeling very scared today
Maybe I shouldn't have came alone
I had to answer a lot of questions today
I answered then truthfully
Then I took a test today
The results I was scared to see
I heard some awful news today
It made me start to cry
My life took a turn towards the worst today
Because I am soon going to die

Today Is The Day
Awakened out of bed
With a single though in my head
Today is the day
I realize what you said
Up and wide awake
New conclusion I begin to make
Today is the day
I realize my mistake
I was so very wrong
Too bad it took me this long
Today is the day
I now know your love was strong
At myself I am mad
My heart and soul are sad
Today is the day
I know you I could have had
I wish I figured it our before
For now I cannot have you no more
Today is the day
I wish I had you to care for

Touch Of Lips
I stand away with s single thought
The love in your eyes I have caught
It reassures my feelings in my mind
Courage, my heart now finds
My legs begin to move close
Touch of lips I want the most
Hand is place onto your face
As your chin just sinks into place
Holding soft and gliding around
My other hand grips hip down
Look deep into eyes of yours
Touch of lips I want even more
My lips move towards its bliss
Bliss of finding that love of kiss
I make my move lips are felt
Move into one another, they just melt
Lips intertwine move sweetly slow
Eyes open up and both seem to glow
Hold in my arms I hold on to you
Touch of lips makes our love feel true.

Waiting
Seconds went by, minutes past
How long is this going to last
From light to dark, from sun to moon
I hope this will come to an end soon
From hot to cool then followed by the cold
How long will this take till it unfolds
The leaves grow green then gather themselves on the floor
I've been waiting so long. I don't want to no more
Days flew by. Weeks went withoutn being known
How much longer will I be alone
I stay and watch all things come and go
The more they pass the more I feel low
But I'll wait for that day till I am with you
For there's nothing else I rather do

Weak In The Knees
My knees get weak
When you come around
But I know that I
Will not fall down
Becuase inside of
Your arms I will fall
And sorrow and pain
I`ll be away from it all
I feel my arms
Begin to shiver
When I see your eyes
Begin to glimmer
They shine so bright
For me just because
And I can`t help
But to fall in love
My heart quickly
Starts to beat fast
And I hope our love
Will always last

Wrist Scars
I look at them. The wrist scars.
And I can't believe I went that far.
Things were not going right that day.
Everything was wrong in everyway.
It was too much. I couldn't take it.
So I took a blade and watched my skin split.
I did it to both wrist, both wrist were scared.
It was quick. It wasn't hard.
I felt a lot of pain so I took some pills.
Soon after that I felt very ill.
I was getting tired and I felt very weak.
I was dripping blood like a runny leak.
My breath was getting shorter, I felt real tired.
I knew that soon my life would expire.
I closed my eyes then opened them. I was awake?
What went wrong? Did I make a mistake?
I was in the hospital lying on the bed.
I guess they got to me fast because I wasn't dead.
But I was tied to the bed. Tied to some bars.
Now I'll have to live with them, the wrist scars.

You
Since the moment I saw you
Nothing has been the same
I have fallen in love with you
Without knowing your name
I hope that you'll come closer
When I see you far away
And if I didn't see you
Then to me it was a tedious day
You don't know how elated I become
When I hear the sound of your voice
Being with you forever and ever
Is my only choice
There is nothing else I rather do
There's no place I rather be
Then to be here together
With just you and me
You don't know how much I'll do
Or how much that I'll give
I may not know your name
But you are my reason to live

You Need To Be Brave

You need to drop that bottle of vodka and pills
Tip them over the sink and let it spill
Deep down, your own life you do not want to kill

You are not going through that much sorrow and strife
So you need to put down that butcher knife
Because tonight you are not going to end your life

You need to let go of that rope
The sorrow you are dealing with, you just have to learn to cope
And you have to realize that there is always hope

You are not sending yourself to the grave
Thinking of ending your life is not the way to behave
You have to deal with your problems, you just need to be brave

You Think

You think tears will be shed
Because of what you said
Or maybe I will turn and flee
Because you were mean to me
You think on my face you'll see a frown
Because you tried to put me down
Or that I will feel distressed
Because you tried to make my life a mess
You think you're going to ruin my day
Just because you tried to bring some B.S. my way
Or just because you called me out my name
That I will feel ashamed
You think that I'm going to get mad
Because you're trying to make me feel sad
Or that I will get angry
Because of the things that you are doing to me
You think you have an effect on my life
When you tried to put me through some strife
Because if you do I'm sorry to say
You're are never going to ruin my day!