Intro A Place For Me Above And Knowing This Blurr Confused Deep Thoughts Drowned Faced With The Feeling Head Is Hurting I Am Trying I Still Feel You I'm Waiting In My Arms Inner Love For Self It Never Fails It's Hard To Hold It Just Empty Just One Kiss Laying On My Bed Lets Me Know Lost But Found Love No Longer Only In My Dreams Opened Arms Pandemonium Is Braking Out
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OK HERE ARE MORE POEMS
BY ME....................
THEY ARE OLDER, BEFORE I GOT MY WEBSITE
So past FEb 02, 2002
A Place For Me
A place for me to cherish you
And remember all the things we went through
Some place that I can go
And think of the things that you had to show
A place for me that I can be
Happy in the thoughts of you and me
Someplace where your images are true
And loving you is all I can do
A place for me to stop and think
And realize you where my missing link
Someplace where I feel complete and happy
Because I had you just for me
A place for me where I can feel your soul
And somewhere that I would never feel low
Someplace where I always have a smile on my face
Or someplace where love can always be traced
A place for me that is real close
A place where I can love you the most
Someplace where we are never apart
Because that place is right here in my heart
Above
Above the grave
I try to behave
Not what I feel
But what is real
It's a big surprise
To know I'm alive
Just because feedback
Is something I lack
Above the ground
No one comes around
Something must be wrong
For no one comes along
I cry no one hears
Or maybe no one cares
And it hurts
To be above the dirt
But I have to show
I am above not below
And Knowing This
I can not see you any more
No longer can see your eyes
And knowing this
Causes me to cry
I can not touch your face
No longer can hold you tight
And knowing this
Makes me weep at night
I can not have you no more
You've gone deep into the ground
And knowing this
Brings my spirit down
I can not feel your love
You're no longer wrapped in my arms
And knowing this
Causes me to do self harm
I can not be next to you ever again
Never goning to get close
And knowing this
Makes me hate life the most
Blurr
Mind spinning round and round
Things falling upside down
Everything begins to fade
This confusion you have made
Your face has become a blur
Do to the switch in you that has occurred
Back and forth my eyes twitch
Passed thoughts are buried in a ditch
No black or white nor dark or light
All is gray that is in sight
Blurriness has settled in
Chaotic vision is found within
In front is someone new
I lose the one a knew
Your eyes have somehow changed
Therefore I must begin to rearrange
Blur for now but will soon clear
Once you're gone and away from here
Sight will be in focus once again
Now that my blurred vision ends
Confused
Mind leans toward one direction
But heart has too much affection
For a certain someone who does know
Of how I feel because I let it show
Thinking of going away to find a new
Feelings of staying and just being with you
Care so much but do not feel nothing back
Sending out love but receiving it I seem to lack
Thoughts of ending what is really nothing
Emotions of trying to turn it into something
Trying to let my heart feel what's in my mind
Want my mind to hear my heart at the same time
Thinking of all your faults throughout the night
Heart then remembers all that feels right
Back and forth with trying to come to a conclusion
Are your feelings true or just an illusion
Head aching too much to figure out
Heart is breakin too much emotions about
Will my heart and mind find an answer for me
So I wont be confused and be set free
Deep Thoughts
My heart is burning
I am tossing and turning
I'm lying in bed
Remembering things you've said
Staring at the walls
Trying to remember it all
From your smiles you show
To your eyes that seem to glow
My head is in deep thoughts
Thoughts that you brought
My mind is on fire
For you I desire
I'm underneath the sheets
Images of you I meet
Closed eyes but you I see
Alone but you're next to me
Feelings of you are near
The heat of your love is here
My mind is in deep thoughts
Thoughts that you brought
Drowned
Drowned in the rivers that flow
Due to my deep sorrow
Of wishing you were here
Drowned in the cold hearted storms
For I no longer feel warm
Because I know you do not care
Drowned in my tears
That come from the fears
Of knowing you don't want me
Drowned in the deep pain
Of my internal rain
For an us, you won't let be
Drowned in wet grief
In such disbelief
That you won't never get close
Drowned in damp depression
Due to my aggravation
For loving you the most
Faced With The Feeling
Faced with the feeling of disgrace
Due to the disgusted expression on your face
Faced with the feeling of pain
Cause when I look at you I feel ashamed
Faced with the feeling of ache
Cause when I see you your head shakes
Faced with the feeling of sadness
Cause when I hear what you have said I brake out with the madness
Faced with the feeling of being alone
Cause the feeling of my presence you don't condone
Faced with the feeling of being hurt
Cause you treat me as if I am less then dirt
Faced with the feeling of wanting to die
For when I am around you all I want to do is cry
Faced with the feeling of wanting to take my life away
Due to the way you treat me and I can't take it another day
Head Is Hurting
Mind is out of whack understanding is lacked
Clear and settle thoughts I want back
Lost and obfuscated my state of being
Life lost its sense of meaning
Darken all knowledge blacked out thoughts
Blurred and shadowed vision is now brought
Search for light and the relief of pain
Has to come now too close to insane
Mind is aching body still braking
Need to breathe and calm down
But no longer that love around
Don't know why it is lost and not here
When I stay around and still care
Thinking makes me hurt confused and gone
Why pain is felt for I have done nothing wrong
Gave love got pain such obfuscation
Thinking about it always sends my heart aggravation
Love not received love still in heart
Mind is falling for heart fell apart
I Am Trying
I am trying to be strong
But the tears will come down
For I am so sad
That you're nolonger around
I am trying to hold it in
But I don't have a choice
The tears will drop
For I nolonger hear your voice
I am trying to hold it together
Keeping myself away from the cries
But the tears will rain down
For I nolonger look into your eyes
I am trying so hard
Not to brake down
But I miss you so much
Since you went into the ground
I am trying not to let it out
But the tears will run down my face
I love you so much
And my love will never be replaced
I Still Feel You
Your eyes are closed
Yet mine are opened wide
But yet I can still feel
Your soulful love that will not subside
You are quite and very still
While I am up and awake
But my heart is overly filled
Of love that you make
Your heart is no longer beating
While mines is pounding through my chest
I know that you are gone
But our love will not rest
Your breath is no more
But yet I am gasping
For the feeling of your love
Will be forever lasting
Your body is not here
But you soul never departed
For I still fell you near
And that is why I am not broken hearted
I'm Waiting
I'm waiting for that day
When you will come my way
And take my sadness away
I'm waiting for that momment
When I feel the love you sent
That no longer makes me feel bent
I'm waiting for that feeling
When the pain will start healing
For my heart you are stealing
I'm waiting for that love I need
Or when you will take away the chains and I am freed
The way to some place full of joy you'll lead
I'm waiting for you
And your love that is true
Being with you is all I want to do
I'm waiting no matter what is at stake
What's taking so long? Why is it so late?
But I need your love so I am going to wait
In My Arms
Lay in my arms as my love unfolds
You my new love I want to hold
In my arms forever you lay
Wrapped in me you shall always stay
Away from harm away from pain
My arms are your shelter against the rain
Holds on strong holds you warm
Holds you tight away from the storm
You feel the love you feel it strong
Wrap in me you feel no wrong
Away from dark away from night
Held on hard held on tight
My arms cover my arms protect
My grip of love you will never regret
Holding firm holding true
Held forever as love is true
Wrapped for days wrapped for nights
In my arms love shines bright
Hold on to me hold on to love
For I wont let go even when we rise above
Inner Love For Self
To let low life rise high above
Brings great distance between love
Takes and tears through feelings strong
Right actions are about but feel wrong
A need to brake beyond broken hearts
I have grown close while you grow apart
Truth takes me torward the light
The shining shows signs of strong fight
Eyes mirror my mourning and sorrow
Today is the need for elation not tomorrow
Days too long has passed me by
Nights too cold from tears I cry
Still so strong a love grew inside
But too many of times I have tried
Love will be found pass time gone by
But body is beaten so a need to try
Made attempts before but now it is real
Too much madness and melancholy I feel
Now I have control of heart and mind
Because inner love for self I now find
It Never Fails
It never fails
How much my eyes get bright
When I see you
Come into sight
It never fails
I just light up high
When I turn around
And you get caught by my eye
It never fails
My heart drops down
The very second
You come around
It never fails
How much that I
Fall more in love with you
Every time you walk by
It never fails
It happens every time
That when I see your face
I wish you were mine
It's Hard To Hold It
I have to hold it back
I don't want to let it out
But it's hard to hold it
Because there's so mant things to cry about
I must try to maintain
I don't want it coming down
But it's hard to hold it
Because there's so much saddness around
I have to fight it
I have to stay strong
But it's hard to hold it
When so many things go wrong
I can't give up
I won't give in
But it's hard to hold it
When there's so much pain within
I don't want it running down my face
I don't want it on my cheek
But it's hard to hold it
Because I am so weak
Just Empty
Space all around
Nothing won't be found
No sad no glad
No happy no mad
Just empty
Blank goes forever
Finding something, never
No smiles no frowns
No ups No downs
Just empty
Hollow all about
Nothing inside or out
No laughter no sorrow
Not today or tomorrow
Just empty
Vacant form near to beyond
Everything is just gone
No below no above
No hate no love
Just empty
Just One Kiss
The situation is this
You are the one I want to kiss
There is nothin else, no strings attached
But a kiss from you I want to catch
You do not know me but I know you
And kissing you is what I want to do
That's all I need just one kiss
You have no idea how much I have been wanting this
I want a kiss form you, you have to believe
That a kiss from you is all I want to receive
It has to be you, you are the one
So come over here and let's get this done
It can be quick you can do it fast
Because the memory will last and last
Laying On My Bed
Laying on my bed, wishing I was dead.
No one listens to the things I have said.
I tell people how I feel and they turn their heads.
Laying on my bed, hoping the pain within will end.
Tears come down again and again.
My life just hurts and bends.
Laying on my bed, wanting the saddness to go away.
The words I love you, no one will ever say.
The only thing I feel is lonliness every day.
Laying on my bed , my wrist turn red.
The pain doesn't compare to the pain in my head.
Now I know I'll soon be dead.
Laying on my bed, knowing the time is near.
I feel cold and wet due to the blood and tears.
Pretty soon I won't have no more fears.
Laying on my bed, I take my last breath.
Now I will be in eternal rest.
I close my eyes and there's nothing left.
Lets Me Know
The feeling in my stomach
That hurt that I feel
Lets my heart know
These emotions are real
The tears that fall down
When you are not near
Lets my soul know
For you I do care
When my knees get weak
Or when my hand shakes
Lets my body know
These feelings are no mistake
The way my eyes light up
And my smile wide and long
Lets my mind know
My love is not wrong
The nights I stay awake
Just thinking of things you do
Lets me know
How very much I love you
Lost But Found
Lost my mind but found an answer
Lost a love but found my heart
The things I though I wanted
Is what broke me apart
Lost a friend but found myself
Lost a soul mate but found my soul
What I hope will make me elated
In turn, made me feel low
Lost a partner but found independence
Lost a love life but found my life
What brought me to love you
In the end brought me sorrow and strife
Lost a battle but found a victory
Lost a past but found a future
The feelings for you turned sour
And what I saw was a blur
Lost a lot but found something more
Lost you but I found me
Feeling broken hearted and depressed
But it will pass as I know see
Love
Love that grows stronger
As I continue to live
Love that I have for you
But I can not give
Love that is hidden
Deep in my heart
Love that makes me ache
When we are apart
Love shadowed in my soul
That has not been given
Love buried in my heart
That is still hidden
Love that can be seen
In the reflection of my eyes
Love that is here
But has to hide
Love that will always remain
Within reach when you believe
Love that you can always have
When you are ready to receive
No Longer
There is no longer a need to fear
Because I have found someone who cares
I was discontented but it has left me
The feeling of sadness on my face I no longer see
The instance you came along
I became very strong and I no longer feel wrong
My smiles do not fade away
The elation I feel always stays
I no longer feel tears on my cheek
When I am around you I never feel weak
Before I always was in a depressed state
I no longer feel like this because I found my soul mate
You changed the way a feel
I know that this love is real
You can see the joy in my eyes
When you are around me you can realize
That I found someone that I cares about me
Now I no longer feel trapped because I feel free
Only In My Dreams
Only in my dreams
Does it seem
That I have a chance
With a little romance
With the person I love
And constantly think of
Only in my subconscious
Can I see an us
Together eye to eye
And love we can realize
Where we can stand
Just holding hands
Only in my imagination
Holds the foundation
Of all that I feel
And that is real
But it can be seen
Only in my dreams
Opened Arms
Available throughout the days
For any feeling that moves your way
If it is fright or sorrow
If needed right now or tomorrow
They are stretch far and wide
To hold and hear you confide
There at the beginning of day
Or when the sun hides away
If it is tears that fall down
Of if feeling alone comes around
My arms are stretched out far
And open and waiting they are
When gray skies come near
Or when no one else seems to care
If thought of mind is rattled
Or if you feel you cannot win the battle
If in your life things go awry
And you feel you will soon cry
The place where you'll be protected from harm
Is inside of my opened arms
Pandemonium Is Braking Out
Pandemonium is braking out
Suicidal thoughts are coming about
Dealing with too many implication
People having too many expectations
I can't deal with it
Thought process is braking bit by bit
I am feeling more inferior
My sadness is becoming more superior
Pandemonium is braking out
Chaos is the only thing about
I see more dark then light
I feel more wrong then right
Too much for me to take in
Too much chaos to within
Pondering about what I became to be
No chains around but I don't feel free
Having the feeling of insanity
Due to the hate of society
Pandemonium is braking out
And all I want is a way out